Day by day it's just getting worse for me . Nothing gets better for me . Back to drinking again ? I don't want drink anymore but is there other solution for me ? Is there anyone out there for me ? To listen what am I really thinking about ? All I do is just work , eat , sleep and drink . Nothing else . No meetings , keep myself busy . I'm too ashame to face everyone . I disappoint everyone , let everyone down .

No meals for me today at all . I don't feel like eating , just went drinking . Though just a little , but its enough . I actually planning to go V3 instead but change of plan so just had few bottles . Think no one still understands me well , maybe I think I'll just stop contacting with people . I just live for myself , work an living for myself . Life has not been good for me at all . All I can say is just sorry to disappoint people around me . I don't know what else can I do . Nothing gets better . I just fail in everything , nothing came success .

To 2 person , Dad and Ah Gong , I fucking miss you two . How I wished to be with you all when the times we have . But it's all too late . Hope to see you two real soon . Hais .