Long time didn't update my blog. Maybe today blog will be quite long . Something inside myself that causes me lost myself . Labels: alone and useless person ., Remained as a failure
So yea . Back to my question . What's life about for me ? To me, I live in a lonely life which nobody cares . I live alone . What do people really want from me ? Maybe just when they got tai ji or what then contact and talk to me . Self-proclaim not free , busy . Maybe not gonna care . People talk to me , say what he/she care. All the same friends I have . Nothing special ? Who is the one , the real brother really cares ? Only 1 ? Steven . The rest , what ever i kept as . Hahas . Just don't bother one lah .
My life , I opened my eyes and see lots of things , I've been just tolerating. Its hard to keep things to myself. But .. Never mind . Maybe time to go back to my alone life . Things I'm not really going to care anymore . Your life, your problem. To whomever it is, it's not my problem anymore , I really had enough of all this nonsenses . Whoever it is, I'm not going to care anymore. I only care for one person in my mind and it's Steven . Because he really show care for me .
Who bother to ask about how am I ?
Who buy things for me when I can't walk ?
Who bother to care how am I going to make my way to take my english oral earlier ?
Who is always there to accompany me ?
Who is the one who take care me the most ?
Who bother to give a call and ask me want to eat anything before coming my house ton ?
Who ? Who ? Who cares ?
Only one brother , Steven .
Maybe it's my life . I've to face it . The loyalty is there . The rest , speak and talk only . Now say but tomorrow forget and no action was shown . And what's more ? Lied to me . Say need rest . Umm... Never mind lah . Alot of things I can just say , I won't care anymore . I can always survive without my phone and you all ? . Why I make myself so hard. Just to cheer you all up and help you all ? Because I thought I've done something good but actually I'm just trying to be some kpo for some people thinking . Why I care so much , I'm not close to you all also . Also no need to tell me one . I also don't bother to care actually , as a friend just show a normal concern. If don't want just say so .
My life , my problems . I always solve it myself. Don't you all ever say you all help me solve any of it . Only my brothers , 117 brothers and Russell . All of them show some care about me . And I appreciate it . Thank you guys alot . And I will play my part as my brother also . You need me, I'll try to help . So maybe that is my life . Not living for you people but for myself . Not gonna be kpo , helpful as last time anymore . People keep asking me don't change . What's the point . No results. Hahas ? I just can't sense myself back anymore. It's 4am and I'm alone .
That's all I've to say . Bye ,
Remained as a failure, alone and useless person .
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& The rest is still unwritten,
& will be continued....
